As Long As You’re Mine

People have asked, judged, and criticized why May 26, 2012 means so much to us. But it is the few people who have asked and truly listened to the answer that we will be celebrating our big, bold, and beautiful love with on May 26, 2017. And as we get closer and closer to becoming wives, exactly 5 years from when our love was born, the importance of our date rings true more and more.

I’ve tried offering explanations before, but have never done it very well. And it’s not that I feel I owe an explanation to anyone, but it’s more that I want people to understand what it felt like to have my soul completely awakened for the first time.

I knew I had always wanted the kind of love that leaves you breathless – for all the reasons you could image – passion, anger, laughter… I just never in my wildest dreamings imagined it to look like it does.

But it’s so much more beautiful than anything I had ever imagined.

And I didn’t even know if I’d be able to keep it, I didn’t know if I would ever be able to call it mine.

I can’t even imagine the heartache I would still be carrying if we never came to be…

We didn’t plan it, we didn’t expect it, and we didn’t know how much we didn’t know.

We just knew that what we felt towards each other and with each other was bigger than anything we had ever experienced without each other.

And we knew we didn’t want to let it go.

We have loved each other, hard, for 1507 days. We’ve hurt each other, helped each other, learned to love better, and will continually grow together. We’ve been the worst versions of ourselves together, and yet we are continually becoming the best versions of ourselves every single day.

We love each other so fiercely that we will never stop doing the hard, messy work that is required of great love.

Recently while listening to music in my car, the same song has made it’s way through the shuffle. Although I love the musical Wicked and at many times in my life have identified with several of the characters, it was only recently that I realized the best expression of what May 26, 2012 felt like for me was in the lyrics of the one and only love ballad – As Long As You’re Mine. You don’t have to know Wicked, you don’t even have to like musicals, but if you’re one of the people who has asked, judged, or criticized the birth of our love, I urge you to listen and read the lyrics. And if you are one of the few who have celebrated our love – whether you understood it or not – I thank you, from the bottom of my big, bold beautiful heart, and I urge you to listen as well.

We never know how long we are able to keep the gifts we are given in this life, but I will treasure this great gift of love for as long as you’re mine. ❤︎

As Long As You’re Mine

Wicked The Musical

AND JUST FOR THIS MOMENT
AS LONG AS YOU’RE MINE
I’VE LOST ALL RESISTANCE
AND CROSSED SOME BORDERLINE
AND IF IT TURNS OUT
IT’S OVER TOO FAST
I’LL MAKE EV’RY LAST MOMENT LAST
AS LONG AS YOU’RE MINE…

[FIYERO]
MAYBE I’M BRAINLESS
MAYBE I’M WISE
BUT YOU’VE GOT ME SEEING
THROUGH DIFFERENT EYES
SOMEHOW I’VE FALLEN
UNDER YOUR SPELL
AND SOMEHOW I’M FEELING
IT’S “UP” THAT I FELL …

[BOTH]
EVERY MOMENT
AS LONG AS YOU’RE MINE
I’LL WAKE UP MY BODY
AND MAKE UP FOR LOST TIME…

[FIYERO]
SAY THERE’S NO FUTURE
FOR US AS A PAIR …

[BOTH]
AND THOUGH I MAY KNOW
I DON’T CARE …

JUST FOR THIS MOMENT
AS LONG AS YOU’RE MINE
COME BE HOW YOU WANT TO
AND SEE HOW BRIGHT WE SHINE
BORROW THE MOONLIGHT
UNTIL IT IS THROUGH
AND KNOW I’LL BE HERE HOLDING YOU
AS LONG AS YOU’RE MINE…

[Fiyero studies her face.]

[FIYERO]
What is it?

[ELPHABA]
It’s just– for the first time, I feel wicked.